How Not to Keep a Secret
Does the thought of keeping something a secret make your insides churn? Have you ever learned some sensitive information only to blab it to your friends? Rest assured, you are not alone in this.
Keeping secrets has never been my strong point, and this occasion was no different. I am not that friend you tell things to in confidence or someone to throw that magical surprise party. Surprise, I told everyone including the guest of honor. Sometimes I do want to make things special though and if I could only wait a bit, I would be able to execute. So, this is a tale of what not to do if you are actually trying to conceal big news.
Holy smokes. Gee golly whiz. Did that just, wait, that wasn’t what I was expecting. My heart’s palpitations were beginning to match those of America’s favorite “sport”. I think they are making another left turn, Bobby Ray. My stomach pretty much crawled its way up to my throat.
Was it true? As swiftly as the doubt crept in, it was swept away.
There plain as day were the eight letters that would change my life. Sheer terror and elation overcame me. Terror at the unknown, stifled by the pure excitement and happiness that comes with news of possibilities. My head felt “swirly” – the new vocabulary only a moment like this could create.
What do I do now? The earth was shifting beneath me and only I was the wiser. Slow down, heart, let me think. I swiftly ran to Pinterest, saving the day for all occasions. How to tell husband really big news so he would give the exact reaction you are hoping for? Maybe the search criteria was too narrow, and eventually I decided I could wing this. I snuck out of the bedroom and tiptoed into the office. Damn, my son had played with all the pens, which subsequently my dog ate. Ink has to be okay for you after how many writing utensils that animal has devoured. At last I found an orange marker and white paper with only a few toddler scribbles. Pinterest awards, here I come. I quickly scribbled a note and place it into a plain, white envelope, super creative and well-thought out.
The Secret is Revealed
It was date night so when I snuck back into the main living area, I slid the card onto my husband’s place mat. He was making steak and the really nice wine was already poured and sitting at the table. I hugged him, complimenting the aroma of his culinary creations. It was a rare date night after all.
I could feel everything written on my face and movements, but he showed no signs of knowing my inner turmoil to hold onto this epic secret. Finally, after agonizing minutes, he finished the steak and we plated the food to sit. Upon sitting, he spotted the note and looked at me quizzically. He opened the note and read it at least twice before a wide grin crossed his face. “Really? Really?” He was almost bouncing as the words spilled out, his eyes gazing intensely on me.
“Yes. Really.” I responded, flooded by relief at his instant delight and utter anticipation. Why was it not that easy for me?
“I want to see!” He said, our food growing cold. I took him into the bathroom and showed him the test. Definitely pregnant.
We ended up back at the table to eat, and I handed over the nice glass of wine to him. He imbibed and could hardly contain his excitement.
Now, I only had about ten seconds to write his letter, in ugly orange marker no less, but if I was able to have a few minutes, and let my heart rate drop below 200 bpm, this is what I would have written:
I am so thankful to have you in my life. It has been an incredible journey full of ups and downs and you have supported me a loved me through them all. You were there to witness my last year of college, complete with a 3 hour daily commute to my student teaching rotation and the subsequent insanity that ensued. And, you were there when I was a teacher and shared my love with 44 children and the demands that consumed. Then, you were there when we had our son and didn’t sleep for almost 3 months solid, ‘nough said. I witnessed you become an even more incredible man with the birth of our son.
Now, we get to start a new chapter. There will be some of the highest highs and lowest lows, but we wouldn’t want it any other way.
Our family is growing. And our love will too. You are going to be a daddy, again!
I love you to infinity and beyond.
So, I did keep it a secret for about 3 minutes, which is an accomplishment for me, but if you are looking to actually come up with something adorable and clever, maybe wait at least ten. Thankfully, my husband can’t keep secrets either and had told everyone he encountered immediately about our happy surprise. For our actual announcement to friends that we got to think out a bit, check out this post:
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